Shia LaBeouf recalls when his now-wife, Mia Goth, showed up for him when he felt there was no one else.
During an interview with Jon Bernthal for the latter real ones In a podcast that aired Wednesday, LaBeouf opened up about being in a rehab center in Utah and about receiving a video call from Goth during family week after the two had been estranged for years. , became emotional.
“She saved my life,” the 36-year-old LaBeouf said through tears. They gave me.”
Calling the 28-year-old Goth “real,” the actor pondered the “irrational” nature of love, felt that nothing offered her in return, and said, “For the first time ever. I didn’t have any, so I really understood love.”
“She gave me hope when I was really running in smoke,” LaBeouf told Bernthal, 45, of Goth, who shares a five-month-old daughter named Isabel. .
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In a two-hour sit-down interview with Bernthal, LaBeouf admitted that he had “hurt many people,” including one particular woman, and noted that he had suicidal thoughts after certain allegations were made public.
This conversation took place almost two years after he was sued by ex-FKA Twigs, who was accused of physical, emotional and sexual abuse.
“I hurt that woman,” said LaBeouf, without naming the 34-year-old FKA — a self-centered, dishonest, inconsiderate, and horrible human being. ”
“I failed horribly…. [I] It hurt a lot of people, and I fully recognize that. And I’m going to rent it out for the rest of my life,” he continued, adding that he has a “long list of people who need to make amends.”
of even Stevens The alum also called his accuser a “saint” and said she “saved my f—ing life” by holding him accountable. Either I’m really mediocre, or I’m completely dead. ”
FKA, whose real name is Talia Barnett, filed a lawsuit in December 2020, accusing former LaBeouf of sexual, physical and emotional abuse, and of knowingly giving her a sexually transmitted disease. A court date is scheduled for April 17, 2023. rolling stone Reported in May.
LaBeouf initially denied the allegations, but recently stated in a letter to FKA to Olivia Wilde: varietyhe refuted the director’s previous claims that she had fired him from her upcoming film. don’t worry darling.
“My failure at Twig is fundamental and real, but not the story presented,” LaBeouf told Wilde, 38, in an email. Yes, I am silent as I try to navigate the delicate situation with respect for her and the truth.
After announcing he was accused and seeking treatment, LaBeouf revealed in a letter that he had been sober for 627 days, calling the past year “my great humility.” did.
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